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lovelikewinter14's Journals on Buzznet http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[R.I.P Matt Handley]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3865761/ at 12:07 a friend took his own life

b4 he did that he was planning it on facebook he wrote down he was gonna do something that would suprized everyone and i guess he met suicide, I will miss him he didnt seem the type to take his life away

he was the only nice and sweet guy at Farmington Mn

I miss him so much

I would do anything just to go back to talk to him just one last time

He was only 16 years old he had his whole life ahead of him

he prob couldnt take this hell whole anymore

Thanks for being my friends matt cuz all the other people at Farmington were fukin dick heads

I wish i coulda done somthing but all in end there was prob nothing i could do

he seemed fine the last time i talked to him

This is so shocking

R.I.P Matt
I love you

]]> 16 years old gone for ever love matt handley missing rip suicide Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-03-14T21:35:00Z <![CDATA[Without you :Motley Crue]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3784191/ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbK1t877JKA

Without you, there's no change
My nights and days are grey
If I reached out and touched the rain
It just wouldn't feel the same

Without you, I'd be lost
I'd slip down from the top
I'd slide down so low
Girl you'd never, never know...

Without you, without you
A sailor lost at sea
Without you, woman The world comes down on me

Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...

Without you, my hope is small
Let me be me all along
You let the fires rage inside
Knowing someday I'd grow strong Without you, without you
A sailor lost at sea
Without you, woman
The world comes down on me

Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...

I could face a mountain
But I could never climb alone
I could start another day
But how many, just don't know
You're the reason the sun shines down
And the nights, they don't grow cold
Only you that I'll hold when I'm young
Only you...as we grow old

Without you in my life
I'd slowly wilt and die
But with you by my side
You're the reason I'm alive
But with you in my life
You're the reason I'm alive
But without you, without you...

]]> dj ashba james michael mick mars motley crue nikki sixx sixx:am tommy lee vince neil without you Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-02-22T11:34:00Z <![CDATA[Life Is Beautiful :Sixx:Am]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3782081/ You can't quit until you try
You can't live until you die
You can't learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

You can't breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when you're the joke
There's nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

I know some things that you don't
I've done things that you won't
There's nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home

I was waiting for my hearse
What came next was so much worse
It took a funeral to make me feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Alive...
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?]]> djashba http: www.youtube.com watch?v=pyls_kmxes0 jamesmichael life is beautiful mickmars motleycrue nikkisixx sixx:am tommylee vincneil Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-02-21T19:33:00Z <![CDATA[Pray for me:Sixx:Am]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3782051/ [Verse 1]
She lights a candle, but she doesn't know why.
She wants to save me, but i'm barely alive.
My soul is thirsty. I just wanna get high.
Make her go away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.

[Chorus]
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I wont die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

[Verse 2]
I dragged myself out of the bed that she made,
And I escape her in a black motercade
She's pushing bibles and a clear bill of health.
I can't make her go away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
She wont go away.

[Chorus]
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
'Cause I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
Just pray for me tonight.

[Electric Solo]

[Final Pre-Chorus and Chorus Combo]
Now i'm hitting the wall and she begs me to quit,
And she drags me to church but i'm scared to commit,
And i'm loosing my mind 'cause she hides all my shit.
And all I ask of her is
Pray for me,
I don't want to
Pray for me,
If you love me.
Cross your heart and hope that I don't die before the best day of my life.
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me tonight)
Pray for me
(Pray for me to- )]]> djashba http: www.youtube.com watch?v=tmhv8q-mdr4 jamesmichael mickmars motleycrue nikkisixx prayforme sixx:am tommylee vinceneil Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-02-21T19:29:00Z <![CDATA[Van Nuys:Sixx:Am]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3782041/ I don't want to die out here in the valley
Waiting for my luck to change
And I just want my dad to know
That I finally made it...
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold
I don't want to die out here in the valley
You don't have to lie,
I know that's what I'll do
I don't want my mom to know
That I never loved my life
And I sold my soul
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold
Everybody gets dark
Everybody unfolds
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets so low
And everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets low
Everybody gets bruised
Everybody gets sold
Everybody gets dark
Everybody unfolds
Everybody gets high
Everybody gets so low
Well you don't know how to get back to your crawlspace
Underneath the dirt and the rust and the waste
But the sun sets fast these days.
Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys
Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van--
Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys, oh
Everyone's eyes are blue
And everyone's mouth is dry
And nobody wants to die
In Van Nuys
Van Nuys]]> djashba http: www.youtube.com watch?v=ssymskbihia jamesmichael mickmars motleycrue nikkisixx sixx:am tommylee vannuys vinceneil Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-02-21T19:24:00Z <![CDATA[x-mas in Hell :sixx:Am]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3782021/ That's what people say at Christmas, right?
Except normally they have someone to say it to.
They have friends and family,
And they haven't been crouched naked under a Christmas tree
with a needle in their arm like an insane person in a mansion in Van Nuys.
They're not out of their minds, they're not writing in a diary,
And they're definitely not watching their holiday spirit coagulate in a spoon.
I didn't speak to a single person today.
I figured why should I ruin their fucking Christmas.

I've started a new diary and this time I have a few new reasons.
One, I have no friends left.
Two, so I can read back and remember what I did the day before.
And three, so if I die, at least I leave a nice little suicide note of my life.

It's just me and you, diary. Welcome to my fucked up life.

Nobody would believe the shit that happens in my head, it's haunted.
Now that I've come down from the drugs
it seems like a sick play that I saw in a theater somewhere.
Thirty minutes ago, I could've killed someone.
Or better yet, myself]]> djashba http: www.youtube.com watch?v=ccwirmcnres jamesmichael mickmars motleycrue nikkisixx sixx:am tommylee vinceneil Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-02-21T19:18:00Z <![CDATA[Permission: Sixx:Am]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3777381/ I apologize
That your memory serves you more than I can now
You'll have to make sense of my life somehow
Yeah, somehow

Well, I close my eyes
Remove each piece of armor one by one
Inhale this moment deep into my lungs
Make amends for all I've done

All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your permission is all I
Need to heal

Well how long have I
Been sitting here, I must have drifted off
I cannot finish any of my thoughts
Forgive me for my wayward shot

All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your permission is all I
Need to heal

I wake up in the morning, and it comes back to you
I breathe in I breathe out, it comes back to you
I stare up at the ceiling, and it comes back to you
I step out my front door, and it comes back to you
The end of my driveway, it comes back to you
Brakelights on the highway, it comes back to you
I could die in Los Angeles.
It would come back to you.

All of my devils, they are free at last, oh
And all my secrets are revealed, yeah
And your permission is all that I,
I need to feel
All of my devils, they are free at last, oh
And all my secrets are revealed, yes they are
And your permission is all that I need.

]]> djashba drugaddiction http: www.youtube.com watch?v=t4-dybot0p0 jamesmichael mickmars motleycrue nikkisixx sixxam tommylee vinceneil Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-02-20T18:02:00Z <![CDATA[Girl with Golden eyes]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/3765421/

She speaks to me in Persian
Tells me that she loves me
The girl with golden eyes
And though I hardly know her
I let her in my veins
And trust her with my life

I wish I had never kissed her
'Cause I just can't resist her
The girl with golden eyes
Every time she whispers
'Take me in your arms
The way you did last night.'

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.

I wake up every morning
Jonesing for her love
The girl with golden eyes
I won't have to wait long
'Til she buries me with roses
'Cause she's always by my side

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.

[Spoken Word]
Day one. Dope free. I went to the clinic today and got the first dose of methadone.
I'm out of dope so I threw away all my rigs.
Day two. I can't believe it's been two days without junk.
Fucking smack, it just ruins peoples' lives.
At first it seems so sweet, then you wake up next to a monster.
Day three. I haven't had anything for three days now.
This withdrawal is killing me. It's like shock therapy to my guts.
Day four. Last visit to the clinic. My whole body feels like it's cracking into pieces.
Fragile doesn't even come close to describing how I feel.
Day five-- I'm sick as a dog, but this handful of painkillers
and a lotta whiskey's gonna get me through.
Day six-- When I'm left to my own devices I go fucking insane.
I'll never use heroin again.
Day seven-- I can't believe I'm clean!
Day eight-- Everyone says I look better--
Day nine-- The parasites are panicking--
Day ten-- They seem amazed that I'm alive!

Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.
Everything will be okay
Everything will be alright
If I can get away from her
And save my worthless life.
]]> djashba drugs heroin jamesmichael mickmars motleycrue nikkisixx sixxam tommylee vinceneil Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2009-02-17T16:13:00Z <![CDATA[ADD THEM TO MYSPACE]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/2668171/ http://www.myspace.com/esronlinestreetteam
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]]> http: www.myspace.com esronlinestreetteam korn solo Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2008-07-12T00:59:00Z <![CDATA[JOIN THE STREET TEAM FOR MUNKY'S LABEL!!!!]]> http://lovelikewinter14.buzznet.com/user/journal/2668161/ Emotional Syphon Recordings (James "Munky" Shaffer's record label) is gearing up for a very busy remainder of 2008. Munky will be releasing his first ever solo album on his label latter this year under the name Fear And The Nervous System.

In order to get the word out, we want all the Korn fans out there to join the Emotional Syphon Street Team! It is very simple to join.

All you need to do is go to www. myspace. com/esronlinestreetteam - ESR Street Team's Myspace, add the Team's page to your friends, and that's it...you are a part of the team!

The ESR Street Team does both online and offline promoting, and runs contest's frequently with great prizes, so come help support Munky, Fear And The Nervous System, and the bands signed to his label (Droid, and Monster in the Machine).....and we will show you our thanks!

-THANKS!!!

written by KoRn ]]> korn munky streetteam Buzznet lovelikewinter14 2008-07-12T00:54:00Z